When I get hyper, I talk nonsense.... it is something that bothers me from time to time. I really don't like this part of me... in which I know what I say might bluntly sound unintelligent and inconsiderate. We say things out of our minds.. I admit that my mind is so imperfect and ungracious. Argh, do I have a secure environment where I can grow with patience? Maybe I should try to discipline myself, but it's so hard! I felt bad for what I said tonight; Amy even said that I was talking crazily that she got shocked 2................. ah, really?! 淑女的形象好像離我好遠... 我也不是一定要當淑女, 可是太瘋狂亂講話的形象真的不是我要的! *大聲的OS~ Well, 有朋友說, "阿這就是Jane啊!" Some people said this w/ complete acceptance and magnanimity, but some carried this phrase with resistance, or hardship?! WAY's atmosphere is sooo different from Daniel. I feel I don't belong to either group lately. What's gotten into me? I duno. I wish I knew the answers to all my questions.
Esther Xiao had her huge 21 bday party tonight at her house. 21 is absolutely an age that worths to be celebrated. *Happy Bday Esther! =) I think I had a great party for my 21 too... can't really recall the last time I gathered people to celebrate w/ me on my bday. Not that I don't care anymore, but I feel the responsibilities come more attached year after year as I celebrate. The impression got me unnerved. I hope I discover myself more each day, and I will come to accepting who am I either by changing myself or loving the way I am. Age comes with maturity, I want to be matured in every way. May Your Words teach me and transform me in light of Your cross and grace!
Esther Xiao had her huge 21 bday party tonight at her house. 21 is absolutely an age that worths to be celebrated. *Happy Bday Esther! =) I think I had a great party for my 21 too... can't really recall the last time I gathered people to celebrate w/ me on my bday. Not that I don't care anymore, but I feel the responsibilities come more attached year after year as I celebrate. The impression got me unnerved. I hope I discover myself more each day, and I will come to accepting who am I either by changing myself or loving the way I am. Age comes with maturity, I want to be matured in every way. May Your Words teach me and transform me in light of Your cross and grace!
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